I know them
I am them
I don’t understand them
I would fix them
I would change them
I can’t reach them
Who are they?
How are they me?
I can’t remember them.
They don’t remind me of when I was a kid running free
They don’t remind me of when I was a young man being funny
They don’t remind me of anything that feels like me
Except
for so long now
the lonely
the loneliness
feels like
my whole world